"Making the decision to have a child - it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."
- Elizabeth Stone
Today Logan is 39 days old.
On April 5th I went to work like any other ordinary day. I had no idea I would end up taking a pregnancy test, and discovering I was, in fact, pregnant! That morning I was talking with a friend about the previous days events. We had had an earthquake the day before that sent me searching for a toilet because it made me horribly nauseous. Prior to that I had fainted in the shower. As I was telling my friend these two things, she stared at me and said:
"Katelyn, you're pregnant."
WHAT?? Never had it crossed my mind that this would be a possibility. She said she would run to the store and pick up a pregnancy test. Sure enough, about an hour later I found out I had a precious little "lentil" on board. His due date was Thanksgiving, November 25th.
In June we found out our little "lentil" was a boy!!!! We all had a feeling that this was the case, but our wonderful doctor confirmed the news at our 16 week appointment. (We couldn't wait until the 20 week ultrasound, we
HAD to know)
We had already decided on a name, Logan.
We then began picking out bedding, decorations and a room color. The nesting began and pretty soon we had transformed our guest room into a beautiful jungle themed nursery.
Through out the next couple months, all check ups were normal. I was having a great pregnancy- uncomplicated, and dare I say, almost enjoyable.
Everyone kept saying that Logan would make his appearance early. Luke thought Logan would arrive on November 11th, others said he would come just days before his due date.
Well, they were all wrong! Logan decided he couldn't even wait until November. He arrived 5 weeks early on October 21st. He weighed 6 lbs 5 oz. and was 20 inches. After delivery he was taken to the special nursery as he was not breathing. They had to intubate him and transfer him to a hospital that could better care for him in the NICU. He ended up spending 6 days in the NICU, due too his prematurity and his lack of lung development at birth. Those 6 days were the most trying days of our lives, having to visit our precious little baby boy in the NICU. Never did I think
my baby would be in a place like this! He was supposed to come on Thanksgiving, healthy, crying and all ready to come home with his mom and dad after an overnight stay in the hospital, all together. This however was not the case, and our plans were forced to be flexible.
Everyday he spent in the NICU he got better and all the news we received was bright. Logan came home on October 27th, and has been growing bigger and stronger everyday! He now weighs around 9 lbs and is quickly growing out of his newborn clothes.
Becoming a mom has been the best thing to ever happen to me. After spending so much time around children for over 9 years professionally, I couldn't wait to have children of my own. I can now really sympathize with my clients, and every mother out there. I can understand the concerns of parents, and how it feels to love your child more than anything in the world. I never knew a love like this existed until I met my beautiful son. Thank you all for letting me care for your precious children as it has given me a taste of what motherhood is like.
"The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new."
- Rajneesh
